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I'm sorry I haven't written for a while. I was on the ABC diet until Thursday afternoon, when I had to go home half way through school because I felt extremely weak and I threw up water and everyone was like wtf. I lost 5lbs, but my health had declined so much I got scared and stopped the diet. I can't believe how shitty I felt after less than a week.

I feel super depressed now. I can't ever eat a normal 1200 calories like a normal person. I either eat very little and way too much. I feel like such a fat ass from these five days of grazing.  I don't ever want to look like every other american out here.  Plus, it's getting warm where I live (70 degrees D:) and I know I need to go spring shopping, but I'm just so disgusted with myself.

Calories never make me happy. I want to be hungry and be eating my perfect 500. I want it so bad. It truly makes me happy.  I just get so weak and sick.

Fuck you health. I'm getting skinny as hell, no matter what you say.

Yours truly,
Lynn